in earth

I believe that I am now scared of change because the last few changes have resulted in nothing but pain, distrust, and disappointment in the world and human nature.

This makes escape so much more satisfying, addicting even. The mere possibility of worlds where things are consistent, predictable, worthy of precious trust, where variables of failure can actually be located, studied, analyzed is so utopic that it inspires the rejection of the present world, so as to serve as the seed of change.