Dear Blog

dammit I told myself I’d use you more this year




It starts as it always does for a person: from deep inside the lump in your throat, dropped into the still heart, gradually spreading, like a ripple, until it emanates from the body with such intensity, until any conscious attempt to rein it back inside ceases to work. Until people see it, and joke about how such a normally condescending ass of a person can suddenly be calmed down and tamed into bashful boy/giggly girlishness.